Guess what? You're in my world now.

I'm glad I finally got the blog together in a way I wanted it. If I had to express my current thoughts? It would probably be that I really want to make a yaoi paddle. Not that I want to bring it to a con and hit people! I just think it would be cool to have as a motif of early fandom culture, and just to play around with! I'm not a weirdo perv, I swear... On that note, I do wnat to say that one of the main reasons that I want a yaoi paddle is because I was in the Naruto fandom at an early age. I'd say around 2018/2019 did I get into it? I was really young, that's what I know for sure. I dug the hell out of it, and shipped the hell out of Narusasu!

If you don't know much about Naruto, or ships, here's them together being so damn cute! Just because I like them doesn't mean I hate Sakura! She's so cute and awesome, I ship her with Sasuke too and I'm happy about the outcome in the anime, despite SNS not being canon. I don't understand why she's hated on so much in the fandom. It bothers me greatly, because she's actually really well written... siiiigh, they'll never get her. I think that's all I have to say for today's blog!

I drove today, it was nervewracking but it was fun in a way. I can already drive but the thing is, I'm not exactly great at it. Yeah, I shouldn't be beating myself up over something I just started to learn how to do but I mean... it feels kinda crappy to not be good at something immediately. Things that take a lot of practice to actually get good at. I don't know when I really will get good at it. I guess I'll have to practice outside of school. I'm scared of totalling my dad's car though :( A boy at my school used to pick on me, and today when I was in the car, his friend yelled really loudly "Isn't that the girl you used to harrass?" It kind of irked me but I didn't think of it that much from that point on. I hope he doesn't start up his antics again, though this time I'll likely be more prepared to handle it maturely.

I don't know how to feel about it though. It still bothers me considering that he picked on me and picked on me hard. And it kind of stings a little when you assume that person is your friend when in reality, they were never really what you thought you were. Just... someone that ultimately turned out to be the fakest person on the planet, I guess... Sure, his friend is the one who yelled it but I can't get it out of my head. I had forgotten all about it up until that point. I don't know. I'm tired. I just want to go home. At least my birthday's soon. I hope I make it.